Fucking Lucivar

I've been trying to put the words together in my head about my first time fucking Lucivar, but it's still too close. Still too viscerally a part of me, still too vulnerable. 

I can't make the words work. 

It was amazing.

Feeling him stretched over me, my small hand wrapped tight around his ankle, anchoring him, anchoring me. 

The beautiful sounds he made as I pressed myself deeper into him, the way that he shook and cried out as he came. 

The soft expression in his eyes of utter contentment as we curled up together afterwards.

I want to describe it with enough passion to do it justice, but I just can't make the words work.